BeccaDawn

Well i managed to slip, no-jump off the healthy eating bandwagon and to just not hop on the exercise ride this week. I did do a pilates session early in my no communication week. Sorry buddies. Sorry self. I let you and me both down. BUT (Its in big letters because it is a big but!!! Today is a new day! Right? I am committing to drinking water and I have already bravely promised two of my buddies that I’l do 30 minutes of sweat producing activity. lol. I even debated with myself about buying larger jeans….just for comfort. When I looked at the price I realized it was alot cheaper to get into shape…Almost no cost at all! Just effort and time. Plus I could sock some of the new jean money fund into the pool fund that my kids and I have going and then my bathing suit will fit too so in the summer I will enjoy swimming in our new pool. (We’re saving money/change throughout the winter and however much we save is the size of pool we’ll get. If it only is $10 it’ll be a kiddie pool. If it is $500 then maybe something big enough to need a filter? You get the idea.) I’m going to sign off and count the weeks until swimming season and give myself a new goal! Have a great one and if you fell off the healthy eating/exercise bandwagon too hang in there. We can make it!

Rebecca

Hi Buddies!  Today has been a sweet day! After months of putting it off I finished my fence. Yay!!!! That feels really good!

The next amazing thing was that I am well above the minimum required glasses of water. I think I’m up to 9. When I reached 7 and realized I was still thirsty I stopped counting officially.

Then the next amazing thing is that I have eaten like I am supposed to AND I’m tired now rather than waiting to fall asleep after 11pm.

Oh fooey! A bunch of stuff just disappeared!

So back to the good stuff. I took a 40 minute walk with my friend Trina! We talked the whole time…Lots of fun. But wait there’s more! There’s more you ask? Yes I did 20 minutes of Pilates from the book I mentioned getting yesterday! My neck isn’t sore. My hips aren’t sore. Wow!! It is amazing what movement can do. AND I got to go outside in the realitively warm day. (34 degrees above zero).

Well Buddies I’ve got to get to bed. My Momee called and we’ve been talking….I did end up watching a really great movie at home last night! I borrowed it from the public  library. Its called Persuasion. It is a BBC adaption of the book of the same title by Jane Austin. If any of you like Pride and Prejudice you will love Persuasion! It is a great romance. I was entranced the whole movie. Very romantic!

Have a great night and make tomorrow an awesome day because you are awesome people capable of great things.

Rebecca

Well, I found that I want to begin using WW again. I had done it long ago but when calculating all the points got me down I stopped. But to go with a lose version of WW I found  a book at the library by Denise Austin. It’s called Pilates For Everybody. Amazing stuff in there. Can’t wait to begin. Good night buddies!

I met my goals today. Water, water and more water. I tend to forget to drink plain water. I think that I may have taking in more calories from liquids than I realised. Today I drank 2 glasses in the am, a cup of tea, a cup of coffee (50 cals of creamer but only drank 1/2 = 25 cals), another large cup of water, travel mug of water before lunch, diet pepsi after eating cup of noodles but as part of my meal, a big store bought cooky, took a walk (7 minutes) ate one heart shaped runt, one more big store bought cooky and resisted another pepsi. I guess I need two more glasses to counteract  the caffeine today. I got up 1/2 hour early and did yoga. It felt really good. My dog eventually put his head in my hand and layed next to me. lol! I was tired so I took the kids to Costco and we each had a hotdog. Mine had saurekraut, squirt of ketchup, squirt of mustard, onions and relish. I drank diet lemonade which can count as a water because of not having calories or caffeine. Oh breakfast was skimpy. Scrambled eggs and the tea I mentioned earlier. We were in a complete rush but at least I got in my two servings of protien today. 4 servings of carbs (too many refined, I know), Probably 1 1/2 servings veggies. I also ate some dry animal crackers and drank a cup of rice milk. (Unfortunately I don’t digest cow or soy milk anymore). No wonder I feel tired. Besides getting up earlier I haven’t really nourished my body but I have eaten better than I have recently. I need a serving or two of fruit another milk and a veggie. Think I’ll make a virgin bloody mary (full of veggies w/o hardly any calories, enjoy a slice of cheese and an apple before going to bed). Tomorrow my kidlets go to visit thier dad. Typically I either take on huge projects to fill the void or mope around doing nothing. Instead my weekend goal is to do one hour of active housecleaning (it’ll be a nice supplement to my workout) on Saturday. I’m gonna take care of my personal care needs, but on a bunch of moisturizer and if it hasn’t snowed finish my fence. I have about 40 minutes of work left on it. then I think I’ll rent the War of the Roses or another comedy and drink a glass of wine/grape juice or some other indulgent tasting full of antioxidant drink. Maybe even another virgin bloody mary. It’s a pretty fun way to get my veggies.

I just wanted to let my buddies know that they really inspire me. Tomorrow’s goals are to drink water. Specifically one glass before each meal, two in the morning and one before bed. I will work out too. I really wish I could run. But the weather in Montana is too cold for my asthma and my treadmill is broken. Do any of you know who would fix something like that? I think I may take my yoga mat out onto the deck and see how my dog reacts. If I do floor work like situps or streches he comes up and sniffs my face. It’s really hard to maintain a “yoga” attitude. I almost always end up laughing and he runs around like “Yay, she really is okay and I know she loves me!” My dog is a cocker spaniel. Very cute and just slightly overweight too. I wonder if there could be a connection? No worries…I’ll answer. Yes. I have a hard time denying myself let alone my very cute furry friend. He knows just how to beg and I really enjoy seeing his tail wag. But when it comes to me I don’t enjoy my tail wagging! It had better be firm! Oops, maybe to personal, but I’ve never really thought about it before. Me-in the overweight category. My dog-in the same overweight category. Neither of us are obese but both of us should not weigh the amount we do. And get this…I feed us both. What is it that I am supposed to learn? What will it take to turn on the thinking gene before the gorging gene? 1 and 1/2 years ago I was just about three pounds less than I am now. I was strong. I could run 30-45 minutes at a time. I could do 30 minutes of Tae-bo at a time. Lunges and squats weren’t a problem. I did yoga and back bends like nothing. I felt good. But when I left my husband, I was afraid of him. I couldn’t eat. I could barely sleep and I was in my senior year of nursing school. I lived in a battered women’s shelter and the judge believed my children’s father and sent them home with him. I had left my home, a marriage of 14 years and was told that my children would be better off with the man that had locked me out of the pantry, freezer, garage. The one that listened to my phone calls. The one that would give a $20 allowance each month but when he had to disclose his finacial records in the divorce I found out he had been making over $60,000.00 a year. It took a whole year for the judge to realize what he was like. At the end of the divorce hearing she told us on the record that this had been the worst divorce she had ever heard. I was given custody of my four younger children 80% of the time. He sees them every other weekend. But the sad part is that my oldest son hurt me and was put on probation. I was not able to ask for custody of him and so he lives with his father, in a neighboring state. My precious son, the one that used to suck on my chin as a baby and could talk so very early isn’t with me. I miss him. I worry that he will continue to become like his father. My other children are in counseling. I have a counselor I see when life gets too rough. But God is in my life. He gives me strength to get through each day. In the last several days I have felt very introspective. Praying much and wondering what is it/how do I live each day now that drama is not a constant factor? My ex-husband had bi-polar and with the abuse our lives were peaks of highs and lows. Especially in the last year. Now I want to make an even-keeled home for myself and my children. I guess that is why it is so important for me to reach this healthy weight without going for broke. I don’t want to make another peak or goodness me, a deep valley for my children and myself to walk through. God blessings to each of you. He really is great!

So I’m going to use this blogging thing to help keep myself accountable. I reached my goal of 10 minutes of jumping rope, jumping jacks and lunges yesterday. And I must add I only did it because I knew I would be keeping a public record of it. Afterwards I gave myself a hot bubble bath and painted my toenails and fingernails. I’m a nurse so nail care is important but it almost always falls to the back of the list of things to do. And today I made myself complete my work at home before I could hop on and blog away. (I’m a public health nurse and can do some of my work from home–Pretty cool I must say.) I’m still figuring out how to use all the tools on buddyslim. I’d love to know my way around the website already. Where is my exercise log? I see that I could add it to the end of this blog but I don’t know how to get there to begin with. (smiling). Have a great day!

Hi out there. I’m new to buddyslim and am looking for an online friend to bolster my courage to change. I have found that I either go all out or totally slack off. I want to be in the middle ground and as a result feel good again, lose just a little bit of weight and be able to be fairly active. I’d also like to increase my physical joy. (I love to hike and have outdoor fun when I don’t get winded). In the past I have ran in 5k races but in the last year I stopped aerobic exercise altogether. I left an abusive marriage and promptly lost 20 pounds (all my muscle…yucky!). Now I’ve regained the weight and just about 3 pounds more. Ideally I would weigh about 7 pounds less than I do now. I believe my body is ready for more strenuous exercise. Any one else looking for a slightly needy friend? (Okay that was typed with a smile!) But I do need someone who will commit to supporting one another emotionally. Any takers?